nonfiction – Jarifuller

Itch

I showered yesterday because I was itchyNot dirty,itchy.Then I remembered that it was spring and that I’m allergic to what is present in the air.Then I remembered that before menstruating, my scalp becomes uncontrollably itchy.It may be the hormones…Maybe I did shower because I thought I was dirty.Or was it the season?Or perhaps the hormones?OrContinue reading “Itch”

Dreaming of You

Silence fills the space,the atmosphere and decor is warm, soft yet vibrant.A fancy hotel, red carpets,a grand staircase,chandeliers,marble…Then there’s us, giggling, full of mischief,enjoying one another company.I haven’t seen you in so long.Even though I could not make our your face, I knew it was you.We ate all the sweets we shouldn’t have, not payingContinue reading “Dreaming of You”

Fear & Doubt

Never been…kissedembraced romanticallyfound attractiveshown interest in Feelings consistently unreturned Why? Impatiently waiting… Patiently waiting… Maybe it’ll never happen Impatiently waiting… Patiently waiting… Defeated self-acceptance

Croissant

I was interested, but unsure if you felt the same. A bread and coffee shop served as our mutual domain. Our interactions resembled the fare served there. Light and buttery.Deep, dark, and robust.Sweet and sharp.Stickiness that tickled the fancy… Unlike the weather, our growing interactions never waned But when you said my name and askedContinue reading “Croissant”

Mirage

We were never friends…

This Is What Showing Up Looks Like I

You said that you were refraining from cursing, even though the word was right there on the tip of your tongue, locked behind the bars, known as your lips. We were young in our friendships, so I did what I believed to be showing up for my friend in their time of need. So likeContinue reading “This Is What Showing Up Looks Like I”

Suggestions

It was a dark, clear and quiet night. We were still new to each other, maybe that’s what prompted my willingness to get into your car. I suppose I didn’t want our night to end. You didn’t either, which is why you whisked me away. Unsure of how to spend our extended time together, weContinue reading “Suggestions”

Apologies

Until that day, I didn’t know that there was an art to apologies. It’s a phrase that spoken about in movies, television shows and songs, but never in real life. Looking back now, I can’t even remember what I was sorry for, but it was important to me. I was passionate, most of our argumentsContinue reading “Apologies”

First Impressions II: Foreshadowing

Looking back at that day, it was riddled with foreshadowing, the beginning, middle and end I met you in a downpour and you pulled up to take me to the house, which would be home for the next three days. In the rain, I appeared pitiful but admirable, hopeful but desperate. To me, you wereContinue reading “First Impressions II: Foreshadowing”

First Impressions I: Partners In Crime

A black Micron 05, is what you remember I used to take notes that day. Corralling cats, is what I remember of how you described working with our team. That day, we proved that we were memorable to someone, but we didn’t know it was to each other.