reflection – Jarifuller

The Mourning Of A Pillar

I showered yesterday because I was itchyNot dirty,itchy.Then I remembered that it was spring and that I’m allergic to what is present in the air.Then I remembered that before menstruating, my scalp becomes uncontrollably itchy.It may be the hormones…Maybe I did shower because I thought I was dirty.Or was it the season?Or perhaps the hormones?OrContinue reading “Itch”

Dreaming of You

Silence fills the space,the atmosphere and decor is warm, soft yet vibrant.A fancy hotel, red carpets,a grand staircase,chandeliers,marble…Then there’s us, giggling, full of mischief,enjoying one another company.I haven’t seen you in so long.Even though I could not make our your face, I knew it was you.We ate all the sweets we shouldn’t have, not payingContinue reading “Dreaming of You”

BTS | A Black Woman’s Tears

About | As a young black woman living in the United States, experiencing how the various systems and infrastructures of oppression, everything from education to employment, to interactions with individuals and personal relationships have contributed to the personal emotional blockage of black women. Where we often keep a lot of our experiences and feelings ofContinue reading “BTS | A Black Woman’s Tears”

Fear & Doubt

Never been…kissedembraced romanticallyfound attractiveshown interest in Feelings consistently unreturned Why? Impatiently waiting… Patiently waiting… Maybe it’ll never happen Impatiently waiting… Patiently waiting… Defeated self-acceptance

This Is What Showing Up Looks Like I

You said that you were refraining from cursing, even though the word was right there on the tip of your tongue, locked behind the bars, known as your lips. We were young in our friendships, so I did what I believed to be showing up for my friend in their time of need. So likeContinue reading “This Is What Showing Up Looks Like I”

Apologies

Until that day, I didn’t know that there was an art to apologies. It’s a phrase that spoken about in movies, television shows and songs, but never in real life. Looking back now, I can’t even remember what I was sorry for, but it was important to me. I was passionate, most of our argumentsContinue reading “Apologies”

First Impressions III: The Beginning of Our Friendship

You asked, ‘what’s it like having a twin brother?’ Glancing up from my sketchpad, I replied, ‘I’m my brothers’ keeper.’ It may have come across as distant, dismissive and cold. Little did you know, that in time you would come to learn the true weight of those words and how they weighed me down…

First Impressions II: Foreshadowing

Looking back at that day, it was riddled with foreshadowing, the beginning, middle and end I met you in a downpour and you pulled up to take me to the house, which would be home for the next three days. In the rain, I appeared pitiful but admirable, hopeful but desperate. To me, you wereContinue reading “First Impressions II: Foreshadowing”

First Impressions I: Partners In Crime

A black Micron 05, is what you remember I used to take notes that day. Corralling cats, is what I remember of how you described working with our team. That day, we proved that we were memorable to someone, but we didn’t know it was to each other.